Stopping smoking
This pneumonia thing has put the fears in me. Here I sit, two weeks down the line, still too sick to work and still smoking. About seven years ago I stopped, with the help of a weird eastern european guy’s help. I didn’t smoke for five years. Then I started again and it’s been bad ever since. The guy I went to before has retired, but a new guy who uses the same process has taken over. Most of you know I have zero faith in mumbo-jumbo new age healing crap, but this is different. It’s called Nogiers Therapy and it stops the desire to smoke instantly.
I have smoked since I was 15. I never imagined stopping was possible. Then a woman I knew saw this guy and stopped. Then another, so I went. I didn’t expect it to work. But I left him after an hour and the need was just turned off. Like completely gone. I have since recommended him to a lot of people and they all stopped with no hassle. It’s a very peculiar thing.
Anyway, I have an appointment on May 15. It’s a week before my 38th birthday. I figure it’s a bit sad to still be smoking in your 40s, so I had always planned to go back to him anyway. But this illness has really worried me. And I know it is related to smoking. My lungs have taken a hammering. In fact, it is quite possible I have emphysema. But I don’t want to do the lung tests. I just need to stop fucking sticking little death sticks in my mouth.
When I did not smoke for five years I was never sick. No sinus, no colds no nothing respiratory. Now here I am with goddam pneumonia.
Besides, I think it is possible that knowingly doing something that will kill you is a form of suicide, and I think that’s entirely a non-Catholic thing to do.
I have warned My Artist and he is not to smoke anywhere in the house when I stop. I want him to quit, but that’s his life and his lungs. Not mine.
Enough of this crap. But I have no will-power when it comes to smoking. None at all. This strange little session fixes it. I know that for a fact. So, I will keep you all posted on this after the fact. But anyone interested can call the guy on 011 462 4420.
When I quit it means daily yoga again. Otherwise I will put on weight. No way around it. Smoking changes your metabolism – so even if you don’t start over-eating you can put on a few kilos.
I feel pretty good for making the call.
